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Diseases can suck. Whether it’s as minor as waking up with a headache or suffering from regular womb issues such as fibroids or endometriosis or even as heavy as cancer can seem. The diagnosis can evoke shock, fear and anger. I want to share some of my perspectives about the inner healing of diseases today and this might not be for everyone, but if you’re here, it shows that at least you are open or curious about it. Just a disclaimer. Even for me, it was not always easy to share my truth at the beginning, as we all know that it can be uncomfortable to speak about something that is so highly debated and that can trigger people and we might get judged and criticized. Yet, as inner healing helped me, I know it might help some of you, too. So I just share my perspective and invite you to take what serves you and leave what doesn’t. Here is something I learned about going through diseases myself. The deeper reason behind diseases is often our own darkness or our own energies acting against us instead of for us. And when I say darkness, I don’t mean someone is bad, mean, dark or evil. Not at all. I mean, I went through diseases or some symptoms myself and the last thing that helps you when coming to heal diseases is to judge or condemn yourself or consider yourself bad or dark. However, opening up to the fact that there is something that arises in our reality that we haven’t seen can help the healing. At least in the experience it did. I healed my womb symptoms, and yes, I did some food adjustments and some positive mindset exercises at the beginning, and while that helped me get rid of some pain and surely supported me in my inner healing journey, in the end I confess that those practices alone didn’t help me to heal the root cause. My womb fibroids were still there. Only until I - as weird as it may sound - started to “love” my own darkness in the sense of seeing and appreciating my own darkness as a part of me, my diseases started to disappear entirely. I practiced that so often with different body symptoms, and everytime it worked for me. It was the moment I realized you can heal diseases from within. I’m not saying this is the only perspective. If you feel triggered, don’t be. Firstly, I’m not saying to never get medical help again. By all means, it’s great we have such advanced access to technology in medical care. If you feel like using some of those medical tools, go ahead. But I’m speaking to those who feel like there’s a deeper meaning behind diseases or who are like me who feel like they want to heal this more naturally from within. That’s important about inner healing. Your belief in your own capability and your determination to heal from within. It’s not a forcing. You can never really force anything. And the best advice I can give you when you want to heal naturally from within is to embrace your own darkness. That which you didn’t see. When I speak of darkness, I speak of aspects about ourselves we haven’t seen yet or we don’t want to see. Basically even judgment and jealousy are darkness. Every time you’re not fully your true self. And for that it can be beneficial to have some “spiritual background” or explore the deeper meaning of life and why we’re here on earth. I personally believe we’re here as energy beings having a temporary human experience. We play a role just like we play roles in billboard games. We have different experiences. We learn, we grow and we evolve. Sometimes we may play roles such as a dark king in chess that might seem fun in the moment, but actually later we may realize “Oh that wasn’t so wise." But in the end, it was just a game! And the human experience feels similar to me personally. Many of us had many lifetimes and many roles. No generalisation here, just an observation. Those experiences and lifetimes are like energies. And so we may have some energies within us that don’t serve us anymore. As energies don’t know any time or space, they may suddenly arise when your soul chooses that it’s time to see and integrate that shadow aspect. And so when you truly want to heal the root of diseases, it’s about shadow work. Embracing and seeing your deepest shadows that surface through the disease. It’s about massive growth. It can feel messy at first. It can be confusing and hurtful, but the healing, joy and ease that follow make you realize it’s so worth it. Like a mother that may go through a traumatizing birth, realizing it was all worth it when she holds her baby. It can be deep subconscious work. Now the subconscious mind can seem complex when we start out and it might not be so easy to access it straight away. And in my experience the first step or let’s say a good way to get started, is to focus on yourself. What’s really you? What brings you joy? What stands in the way? Those are easy impulses but they indeed can provide you with insights. Because every time you’re not yourself, it can hint at a possible shadow aspect to see and integrate. Inner healing to me personally was not always about complex healing methods. It was about seeing where I’m not myself, where I cannot accept myself, and where I go against my desires. And often we have no clue. A lot of people live their lives unconsciously. So we bring the unconscious to the conscious. We become aware. Which is the first step. You need to become aware. And so this could be the initiation into your healing journey to become aware of your darkness or shadow aspects. Not in a way to condemn darkness or shadow aspects but to understand what darkness truly is. An experience to see who you truly are deep down: light. Sometimes you can only appreciate the light if you’ve been through darkness. In other words, you can only appreciate the sun if you’ve experienced rain. Having access to that knowledge doesn’t guarantee you never get ill again. It’s rather to provide you with tools to help yourself navigate challenges in case they arise. Healing diseases made me become appreciative of each day that I’m in good health or that my heart is still beating. Because really it’s not something we should take for granted. Other people would give everything to be in our situation. And that’s a reason why diseases can appear: It reminds us or asks us to question who we are and what’s truly important in life and where our focus is. The disease can become an ambassador. A gift in disguise. If you don’t embrace it, you might only see the horror, the pain, and the struggle. If you’re open to look deeper, you see the beauty. Not the beauty in the disease itself, which can feel really uncomfortable, of course, but the consequence. The consequence of the healing it brings. The realizations. The growth. The shifts of allowing yourself to see things differently. And that’s the pain and beauty of inner healing. In the end, in my personal opinion, we cannot really be ill, but we can only have the experience of being ill. Just like in a Monopoly game, you can have the experience of being poor as a player without being poor. It’s a game. That’s why my approach is not to heal you but to remind you of your essence, what I was reminded myself, and provide you with tools and impulses that can help you to heal yourself. Because in the end, always remind yourself that you’re not powerless. You can only have the idea of being powerless. And that’s another step to approaching the healing of diseases. To reclaim that power that you can do and heal anything if you believe in your capability. There’s more strength within you than you can imagine, but if you believe you’re powerless, then that’ll most likely be your experience. Because that’s a cosmic law. What you believe in will come true because you’re a creator. Lastly, I want to point out you cannot do anything wrong. Often we are so scared of diseases because a lot of us are so scared of death deep down. Let’s be real here. We are all going to die one day. If you know me, you’ll know I like to see life with a good sense of humor. Life can seem tough and cruel, so humor helps me take life less seriously. So I want to share one final perspective, and it’s this: If you see life like a party. You’ll realize you cannot do anything wrong. Some leave the party early, some later. Some stay so long and get wasted. Some leave when it’s actually the most fun moment. All is good. All is well. One day we may reunite as pure energy and say, “Hey, remember when we went to the Earth party and got so fucked up?” I bet we’ll have a good laugh about how we once all took that life or game so seriously when it was just an experience. And while I publish that article, there is the song from Avicii turning up in the cafe I’m sitting in. I'm hearing “One day you gonna leave this world behind. So live a life you will remember. My father told me when I was just a child. These are the nights that never die." If that’s not a perfect synchronicity to end this article. Song texts can be great reminders. One final point that’s important to me to point out here. I know there are many opinions about healing diseases and it can heighten people’s emotions. I want to highlight that those are just my perspectives based on my personal experience. There are so many perspectives and approaches. And in my view, there is not just one perspective or one truth. It’s similar to a shopping mall. When you’re on the ground floor of a shopping mall, you may see bakeries and butcheries when you look out of the window. On the 7th floor, you may see the rooftop bars of other buildings. It’s not that one experience or perspective is wrong. It’s just a different perspective. And that’s exactly what this article is for. To provide you with a different perspective on approaching the healing of diseases, and you choose whether to dive deeper or skip this information. If you're interested in inner healing, stay tuned. I'm going to share further impulses and information on inner healing and shadow work.