Q&A: The deeper meaning of diseases from a soul perspective

The spiritual market has become a billion-dollar market. But does it provide the results we want to see? Is it always effective? Does it always serve us? Spiritual courses market things like “kundalini awakening,” “consciousness shift,” and “wake up from the illusion,” and while all of that can be helpful, I asked myself, “Does it serve me?” Does it enrich my life? Many lure people into their courses, promising big consciousness shifts, sometimes starting at 2,000 dollars. If you observe this trend, you may think spirituality has become a new luxury good. Is it another trend we chase, I asked myself? Earlier in our lives, some of us used to invest our money in fancy bags. Now we’re investing in courses, hoping to discover happiness, heal, or attract abundance. One day, despite attending numerous courses, I found myself unable to manifest my desires. I still couldn’t attract abundance. Believe it or not, I had participated in dozens of abundance courses led by mentors who either held or claimed to hold a high level of consciousness and who shared or claimed to share highly effective light codes. What was I doing wrong? I still couldn’t attract abundance in the long term. It was rather short-term success, not something sustainable. Until one day, I tuned in to my intuition. I was frustrated: I asked my intuition, "Why can I still not attract abundance?" Why can I still not manifest? I have already done so many light code activations. And my intuition said the most shocking phrase to me. “If you want to attract abundance, you need to stop taking abundance courses.” What??? I thought. It was not the answer I wanted to hear. First, I was in denial with the answer I heard. And that’s quite typical for the intuition. It can give you answers you don’t like or don’t want to hear. But later you notice how exactly those answers can help you evolve. And I asked my intuition, "Will I be even more lost for answers?"" And guess what? Another shocking answer appeared: “One of the most unsovereign people are people taking abundance courses.” Oh, damn, I was apparently part of them. But I could soon sense it was not in a bad way. It was supposed to tell me a more profound message: to wake me up from the illusion. And waking up wasn’t stimulated in a course. That waking up came from deep within myself. That was the moment I experienced my first realization: You do not require another to awaken you. The deepest realizations came from deep within myself. I had invested a significant amount of money in various courses, and I found myself repeatedly asking the same questions: Why am I not experiencing success? Why can I not manifest? What is holding me back from abundance? Until the next realization came: I entered a spiritual or abundance courses with the intention of having someone else tell me the answer or strategy. I suddenly recognized the pattern. I was playing the “victim.” Playing the victim means you remain unsovereign in a way. You need another one to tell you the answers. And all my self-worth issues arose. The realization dawned on me that I couldn't trust myself, and I didn't even trust my own intuition when it came to providing those answers. I didn’t trust my feeling. Oh damn, that was so hurtful. I trusted other mentors more than my intuition. Was I even surprised that I couldn’t attract what I wanted, constantly trying to find answers outside of me? In that moment, my higher self came through, saying: “I activate you; no one else outside of you has to. I am your guide; no one else out there is.” Boom, another shocking answer. Again, this was another answer I would rather not hear or expect. It brought up anger within me, too, realizing how little I could trust myself. But it was precisely what I needed to hear. In fact, looking back, I realized I was waking up from the deeper illusion. The illusion is that you need an abundance course to attract abundance. I’m not saying that you should avoid taking abundance courses. But if you’ve already done 100 courses or read the 100 tips on abundance, well guess what, the 101st abundance course or tip may not necessarily give you the answers you’re looking or hoping for. It was when I had another big realization: there comes a time you need to trust yourself. You must trust your own intuition. You can’t rely on mentors and courses. So many people become dependent on mentors or courses. This dependency is precisely what can prevent you from accessing your true power. Participating in a course implies that you are saying, “I need to find the answers out there.” So what did I do then? I did a lot of self-reflection and journaling. And that was my path to abundance. Not by consuming another course and listening to another technique, another lightcode activation, or another affirmation practice that stressed me out. But by connecting deeper with my patterns, my behaviors, my thoughts, my emotions, and my perceptions. What was the most remarkable result of this new approach? When I just focused on introspection, quieting the mind, and connecting with my intuition on my next step, I suddenly felt as empowered as never before. There was first a whirlwind of emotions and inner chaos/turmoil, but after a couple of weeks, there was much more clarity, more calmness, and more certainty on the next step and my purpose than I have ever felt before. And that’s the most powerful lesson I learned. The answers are not out there; they are within you. If you feel you can’t manifest or you can’t attract abundance although you’ve already taken 100 courses (maybe not literally, but you know that’s what it can feel like), maybe it’s time for you to deeply connect with yourself. Overall, it’s a bit like learning to drive a car. A couple of lessons are helpful; this means that taking some basic courses or receiving initial guidance is beneficial, as well as learning specific skills. However, if you rely on the driving instructor for constant assistance, you may soon have a problem. You’ll never be a sovereign driver. You may never develop your own style. And yes, even if it means you make mistakes, well, that’s part of life. That’s how you learn. I spent a couple of months in deep introspection. I journaled each day. I sat with my emotions. And finally the answers appeared. New insights arose. New ideas and projects popped up. They appeared unexpectedly. I didn’t chase another abundance course, another activation, or another God-knows-what. And occasionally, it showed me that it’s fairly easy to participate in or even hold a course. It’s so challenging to embody what you learn or even teach. And I had another important lesson: Each soul has their unique codes. Each soul activates those codes when they’re ready. And if you’re not ready, then you don’t have to force your progress. Instead, you can find your own inner rhythm, your own soul rhythm that takes you so naturally. Step by step. Without force. Without pressure. There is no pressure to succeed. Oh, there’s a lot of joy. The joy lies in the process of co-creation. It's the joy of finding your own inner rhythm. And that’s a moment when finally new ideas and abundance can arrive. Not from you trying harder or doing more. I t's rather about being more authentic and true to ourselves. We should trust our own intuition and proceed with the action we feel guided to take in this moment. Because ultimately, when you desperately search for answers in a course, you are sending a signal to the universe, “I’m a victim. I don’t know what to do.” It’s like a whip. While someone is on the bottom, the other one has to be on top. It’s duality. Therefore, when we assert ourselves as the victim, someone else must assume the role of the savior or the hero. And that’s why, just in my very personal view, the spiritual market has become a billion-dollar business. It’s not always based on genuine connection, guidance or help. There's an underlying pattern beneath it. It’s profit. It’s playing the hero. It’s playing the savior. It’s duality. There is a dichotomy between the victim and the hero. If there were no victims, there wouldn't be any heros or saviors, charging hundreds if not thousands for spiritual guidance. For techniques and answers that can be found within yourself, too. This conclusion is a personal observation, not a generalization or judgment, and may not apply to all courses or mentors. I observed this phenomenon in more cases than I had hoped to encounter. Some people start getting frustrated at the high rates. But it's not always a high rate that determines the effectiveness of a course or gives you the results you are hoping for. True sovereignty starts when you realize you’re not powerless. You’re as powerful as your mentor. You’re as powerful as everyone else. You hold all the answers within you. You hold unique codes that only you can share with the world. That’s the path to sovereignty. By claiming it. By embodying it. By allowing yourself to have your own realizations. This involves embracing the process of self-exploration, instead of relying on external sources for answers or healing. So the most painful, yet powerful, realization I had was that you don’t always need an expensive course to progress. Sometimes, all it takes is time to connect with yourself and your intuition. And you know what? It’s free. It costs 0 cents to connect with your intuition. Your guides are there for you. They are beings with so much wisdom. They stand by your side. They don’t expect one cent/penny in return. Nevertheless, it doesn't mean you can't take courses. It can be helpful to find some inspiration without becoming dependent. I am grateful for the courses I took, as sometimes general guidance can be valuable. But if you keep chasing the answers by doing course after course without seeing true manifestation or abundance results, there comes a point where you have to evaluate if the courses still serve you or have served their purpose. That can be a life-changing decision. It was the moment I realized that if I truly wanted to attract a life of abundance in all areas, not just financially, I needed to stop relying on others and start building my own future. I had to co-create with my energy, guided by my intuition. That was true self-empowerment. In the end, spirituality is not a fancy term; it comes from deep embodiment. It involves embodying more of your spirit. No one else can do that for you. It’s not a one-time event; it’s an ongoing process. Since then, life has become my teacher. I learn from life. I learn through experimenting. That’s how I created my business without any prior business experience. That's how I do a lot of things intuitively. Were there failures? There were numerous failures! It showed my limitations, precisely my limiting beliefs, something I could never spot or learn in a course, but only from real-life experiences. Money or financial abundance in particular doesn’t always come from simply thinking about it; it also requires you to be more authentic and to share with the world what you truly wish to express. And that, only you can know or find out. The most painful thing I experienced was to invest a couple of hundred, if not thousands, of dollars and not see the results I was hoping for. It reminded me of buying an expensive bag that still didn't make me feel happier than a cheaper one. Why I share this is not to talk badly about any other mentors. But rather, to raise some awareness of a common problem I observe. The problem is that so many people invest in courses and report that they can’t manifest or perceive happiness. It’s not to evoke negative feelings, but to raise awareness and find alternative solutions for how we can make it more convenient and beneficial. Yes, this article may trigger some people, and not everyone would agree, but please note, as always, the content is my personal experience and views. Take what resonates, and leave what doesn’t. P.S., next time you take the next course, ask yourself, does this course call me, or is it my desperation pulling me in? 11 December 2025

I thought I was too quiet to live my dreams. I’ve always been more of an introvert. I had my moments where I could be outgoing, but that was not the standard. I was only comfortable being around people who made me feel safe. And that didn’t happen so often. Occasionally you meet those people who just make you feel like home, an instant feeling of familiarity. It was only then that I understood why I was often so shy and introverted. I didn’t feel safe. I didn’t feel safe to be myself; I felt scared of judgment. 1) Learn to feel safe within yourself. So I first had to feel safe within myself. I had to do a lot of inner work. That’s the first tip I can share with you if you suffer from shyness or social anxiety. Become safe within yourself first. Explore yourself first. 2) Learn to accept yourself. People’s judgments are often projections. Who says there’s something wrong with introverts? One of the deepest people I’ve come across so far was an introvert. However, in this society, those who are the loudest are often the most heard and seen. But the loudest ones aren’t always the ones with the greatest depths or personalities. It’s irrespective. There’s nothing wrong with being introverted. I’ve always thought I had to change. I thought I had to be different. I thought I had to become “louder.” Until years later, I realize I was constantly trying to fit in. I'm not here to win others' approval. It was the moment I had to learn to be myself. This meant accepting that I prefer to maintain my privacy and that I do not always open up to people quickly. However, I’m super sensitive; I help people if they need me. I learned to value the strength in being introverted. You perceive the world differently. Being deeper and feeling more is, quite frankly, a strength in and of itself. 3) Accept that you're not for everyone. I accepted that I'm not for everyone. It made such a big difference; if you stop trying to fit in or stop trying to be different, you can finally breathe. You realize there’s nothing wrong with you. Society has long made me believe there’s something wrong with me. But it was just a belief. I have come to understand that I do not need to associate with the most boisterous individuals in the class or at social gatherings unless a mutual connection exists between us. Sometimes a mix of introverts and extroverts makes outstanding connections and awesome teams. We often remind the extroverts to calm down, and the extroverts remind us to be more outgoing and share our opinions. But if someone finds me too quiet, too sensitive, too introverted, or too whatever, I no longer care the same way I did years back. I remind myself that I don't need to fit in, and it's okay if I'm not here for everyone. You know what? That’s a form of liberation. Realizing that you don't have to constantly work on yourself or strive to be different is a liberating realization. But just accept that you’re different. You can still improve and move through your fears, but at least you now feel less driven to be different or strive to be someone you're not. And then something magical happened in my life when I more and more accepted who I was. New dreams appeared. New opportunities. For example, I love writing. On some days I almost prefer writing to speaking, something only introverted writers may fully understand. I’m simply tired of listening to people’s drama, bullshit, and stress. The loud noise gets to me. On some days it’s all too much for me. And so I started living my passion and dream by writing books, among other things. What’s the lesson? 1) You don’t have to change. Occasionally you just need to accept who you are. That doesn’t mean you can’t improve, though. 2) You can live your dreams as an introvert. There will be opportunities. Introverts often have a powerful connection to their intuition. They often have the ability to tune in to their inner voice. They sense if something is off. It’s often overshadowed by fear, self-doubt, etc. If you are feeling curious and wish to pursue your dreams or follow the whisper of your soul, and if you need further inspiration or guidance on how to get started, I am happy to share more insights about my journey from the corporate world to writing books and living my passion, which has brought me greater joy, happiness, and a sense of purpose despite my introverted nature. I summarized those tips and journal prompts in my masterclass. Yes, I had to bring myself out of the comfort zone more than once. But still, I could be myself. And so far I discovered new aspects about myself. The safer I feel within myself, the more I can open up as I care less and less what people think of me. That’s the beauty of inner work. You explore new facets and characteristics about yourself you didn’t know you had. That’s a testament to the inner growth when we start accepting ourselves and dare to meet ourselves at a deeper level and greater depths.

A couple of years ago, my mother and I were in a hotel in Mallorca in Spain. There was an Argentinian waiter. We asked him, "What brings you to Mallorca?" “He said work! Look, I work in paradise,” pointing his hand to the sea… and the beautiful location he was working in. A stunning terrace surrounded by trees. He said in winter he’s in Egypt; in summer, in Spain. Back then I was in the corporate world, and for the first time I dared to see things from a different perspective. This waiter was so relaxed. Calm. Peaceful. We had to wait a bit longer. However, he reminded me that living in paradise doesn’t always mean doing things fast or being stressed. So many people complain about being stressed these days, but that man reminded me how stress is caused by ourselves, and it doesn’t vanish unless we choose to slow down. That’s what he sought to remind me of in that holiday: to slow down. Even if things don't move as quickly, it's important to slow down. The night turned out to be full of pleasant conversations with my mum, surrounded by a calm atmosphere, big palms, overlooking the calm Mediterranean Sea on a lousy summer night. We ordered a second glass of white wine (at that time, I was still consuming wine). Then the laughter and conversations rolled between my mother and me. The food was delicious. Sooner than later, we didn’t even realize how fast our second glass of wine was empty. (It must have evaporated. 🙃😉😅) Then the Argentinian waiter passed by and, seeing our empty glasses, apologized, “Ohh, you didn’t get the second glass of wine yet?” We were somewhat amused and replied, "Erm, no, it’s already the second glass that’s empty.” He asked, “Do you want another one?” And for a moment my mum and I looked at each other, “3rd glass of white wine??” The doubt kicked in. The hesitation. It was the "good girl, behave" syndrome that took hold. We were expressing our concerns about whether it was appropriate to have a third glass of wine. In that moment he went like, “Why not????” with a charming if not cheezy smile. In that moment, that sentence changed everything. Yeah, indeed. “Why not???” Why behave? Why try to be good’? Why doubt so much? Why not allow yourself the pleasure or do what feels good now? Regardless of the circumstances, it's important to embrace the moment. We decided to order a third glass of white wine. When it came, my mother and I cheered to it; we cheered to life. And we both looked at each other, clinking our glasses, saying simultaneously, “Yeah, why not?” which had both of us giggling. This event took place a couple of years ago. I still think of this waiter whenever I’m doubtful. Just recently I passed down an ice cream parlor, and I went like, “Shall I get an ice cream?” Then I thought of his sentence, “Why not?” And it instantly put a smile on my face. Occasionally my mum and I still joke about it! “Why not?” It became our sentence to simply allow pleasure whenever we’re doubtful or simply not allowing ourselves some pleasure in daily life. So next time you’re doubtful whether you can really treat yourself to something, ask yourself, “Why not?” lol Then just do it. Order a glass of wine. Get the ice cream. Go for that visit. Here’s where the fun begins. And in our case… the warm, cozy positive vibe continued that night. Today I was passing by a store in Bali, saying, “Why not?” I got the impulse to write about it, and for a moment I was hesitant. Does anyone want to read this? Is that not too cheesy to share? And that sentence, "Why not?" popped up and reminded me to do so! If the impulse is there, then why not act on it? It's important to act before doubts begin to creep in. And for some of you, that sentence could help you too! It certainly proved beneficial to me. It clearly showed me how we constantly remind each other what’s truly important in life. So, this is the reminder today to make the most out of every moment. If you’re doubting whether you can achieve your dreams or treat yourself, ask yourself: “Why not?”

What is the higher self? It's the aspect of ourselves that is whole, complete and the version of ourselves that already lives what we crave for deep within. It can be the version of you living your heart's desires and your most abundant timeline already. Everyone might perceive the higher self a little differently and that's completely normal. What are some of the main advantages of working with the higher self? Guidance on your life path and with important life decisions You can receive your own intuitive guidance on the next step, on your life's purpose, on important life decisions. While there are no right or wrong decisions, there might be choices that serve us more than others. Those choices result in a greater amount of joy and connection. More connection A lot of people feel very disconnected from themselves. That can show up in various behaviours. E.g. we always search the answer on the outside. While a mentor or reading can help you receive guidance, it's important to always listen to your own intuition and perceive your own inner feeling. Accurate guidance Let's be honest. Sometimes, other people's opinions, influences and emotions don't always serve us, even if they're not meant to be against us. Our higher selves is us, in a different vibration, it can guide you with accuracy that no one else out there can. You can always trust it. However, it might be necessary to calm the mind first before listening to the higher self. Want to learn more how to create the life of your higher self and become the best version of yourself living your dreams? Jump into my Masterclass where I'll show you step by step how you can embody your higher self.

Maybe you’ve experienced it yourself. As a kid, you’re told to behave. What shall others think of you? In your teenage years, you’re supposed to choose a good job. You got to look good on the outside, right? By your 30s, you're supposed to have 2 kids, a dog, and a house. That’s often portrayed as the ideal family image. Or it's simply your mother's dream for you or what society expects you to do. Otherwise, people frequently ask, What's wrong with her/him? But what about your deep inner heart's desires? It’s reached a level where many people are just busy living up to other people’s expectations and fitting into an ideal image. Society is suggesting to us, “This makes you happy. The truth I came to understand is that there is no general satisfaction recipe, even if society wants you to believe it. Now let’s look a bit deeper. Why are we often so concerned about fitting into society, trying to fulfill certain expectations? One of the reasons could be because we’re social animals. We’re social creatures. Most of us fear being excluded. We fear being ridiculed. We fear being treated like an outsider. It’s not actually that we are an outsider or that we are a failure. It’s rather the feeling or the odd looks people may give us. It’s a feeling that can leave you feeling like you’re not okay. We’re not fearing the condition as much as we’re scared of the feeling. Let’s say you’ve failed. Well, the condition is not ideal, but the feeling it leaves you with. The feeling of feeling like a failure, for example. But let’s put things into perspective. In the old days, many people didn’t have much choice. They more or less had to behave. They had to do things like they were told to do. Yet, what about our inner desires and dreams? What do we intend to do with our lives in terms of career, family, etc.? For example, in your 20s or 30s, many people may assume you will start a family. There can be nagging questions from others that can make you believe that you need a child now. But deep in your heart, you don’t really feel like having a child. What happens? You’re making society proud or your mother proud, but deep down within you something doesn’t feel right. And of course, there might be highs. There might be moments of pure joy and so people tell themselves to not make such a big fuss out of it, but what many don’t realize is there’s an increasing void deep within, often very much silenced in the background. Why? Because deep down you’re not living your own deepest dreams, you’re adhering to society's standards, living to someone else’s happiness formula, or trying to fit in or even pretending to look happy. There is such a strive for happiness in this society that most feel disappointed when they just can’t feel happy. Now, what does happiness truly mean? It’s individual. For some, it’s a dream to have 2 kids and a dog. For others, this idea alone would sound like a pure nightmare. They love the freedom. For some, it’s a dream to live in a cottage in Norway far away from the crowds. For others, this idea alone would scare them. They love the big city life of New York. For some, it’s a dream to make progress in their career in the corporate world. For others, this idea alone would be a nightmare. They enjoy their creativity and their freedom to work whenever they want. And you know what? It’s all okay. There is no right or wrong. It’s a preference. However, the challenging part? We often judge and are judged for our choices. You don't have to live up to anyone's standards or expectations. And why? There isn’t a one-size-fits-all happiness formula. This is a trap. I call it the trap of fitting into society. You’re not here to fit into society. But… you’re not here to fit into society. You’re here to discover more of your true self. Be more of who you truly are, not who someone else expects you to be. If you currently feel you’re out of place or you don’t fit into society’s image or expectation, don’t worry. Most people who might not agree with you or give you odd looks are often trapped in their limitations. It's often not because they are bad, but rather because they don’t know it any other way. For them, that’s how you shall live life. Often, there is a general assumption to get a job, get married, and get kids. But the rising number of cases of depression, burnout, and fatigue is alarming. The reasons might stem from something deeper that we may have often ignored. There's often the constant need to fit into society instead of being yourself. And then there may be your insecurities. E.g., if you choose or don’t feel like having children, will you regret that decision one day? What if you’re alone when you’re old? If you go self-employed, will it all work out? If you dare to move to a different apartment that doesn’t excite you, will you be happy in the new one and find new friends? Those are all valid reasons to consider. No one else can decide that for you. However, this is your life. You should live it to your expectations. All that matters is what you feel like doing. It's not important what another one thinks is best for you. And in society we see the consequences of that. Being in a job that another one expects you to be in can more and more result in burn out or depression than doing something you truly love. We’re observing more and more “difficult children.” At least that was what I heard from several teachers. Children have changed. And let’s be honest. If parents don’t have time to care for them or feed them healthy food, how shall they develop well? When we don’t take the devotion to care for their mental and emotional development, how shall children learn it? Many young people don’t always have the mental and emotional clarity to navigate the daily challenges with ease. I mean, it’s tough, so how shall they even teach someone else about it? Yet, there is no right or wrong. It’s simply an observation. Then there's guilt, regret, and all sorts of emotions, which often come down to one main root cause. Many people don't live up to their expectations. They don't allow themselves to live their dreams or on their terms. It’s so subconscious that you often might not even realize it at first. Yet, it can one day have an impact on your satisfaction levels. You could say, in the early days, people lived like that, too? Yes, totally. But times are changing. There is a different kind of life today. We’re faced with different challenges. And so we can dare to change. We can dare to re-evaluate some of our choices, and each time we’re about to make a decision, we can ask ourselves the simple, yet tough question: Is this my dream? Is this what I really want deep in my heart, or did I pick up that dream, expectation, or desire from society? It can prevent you from a lot of heartbreak. It can hinder you from feeling drained and empty later in life. The more you live in alignment with who you are, the more balance you will most likely experience. Balance is not necessarily when outside conditions are perfect, but when you feel at ease with who you are. And the belief a child could make you happy, or a new job could increase your satisfaction, often leaves many people drained along the way. Happiness means you feel aligned to yourself. Happiness is an internal state of being that has nothing to do with someone else to start with. Believing something on the outside can make you happy often leaves us trapped years later when we realize, “Shit, why do we still not feel happy? Why does happiness not last?” And then we have to become aware that this life is not just about happiness. It’s about growth. Every challenge shapes us. They bring out the best and sometimes the worst in us, which both speak for growth. It’s often our judgment that makes it challenging. So that’s a reminder to connect with yourself more. And most importantly, let’s not judge other people so much. Let each person choose for themselves. We are only ever responsible for our lives, not for the life of another. That’s their business. And for the ones who feel they don’t fit in, don’t worry. There is nothing wrong with you. You are always in the right place at the right time. Dare to live on your terms. That’s the biggest gift you can give yourself and the world, even if others won’t agree with you. They don’t have to. You have to agree with yourself because there can be nothing more dissatisfying deep down than living to another one’s expectation or dreams. There can be nothing more courageous and satisfying in this society than daring to live on your terms.

It’s not hard per se. But what makes it challenging is how many limitations in any shape or form often arise in your journey. How many crossroads you come across, How often, just when you think you’ve figured something out, does a new portal, like a new door or sometimes a new dimension, open up, and it feels like you know nothing so far? Yet, it all serves a greater purpose. I call it the game of life. Because in the end it’s a game. Even the state of ‘forgetfulness’ is a game. Even the state of ‘frustration’ is a game. And yet, it appears real. While you play chess, you could say it’s a game, but while you play, the game is real. So it is with life. And so here are a couple of reasons why the spiritual journey often feels lonely. In my perspective, souls choose to have an individualized experience to experience greater levels of who they are. They know they are one all together, but they experience the idea of separation to really know what oneness feels like. They choose an individualized experience to have different energy experiences to learn, remember, grow, and evolve. In other words, they embark on the game voluntarily, and they forget voluntarily. It’s part of their mission. Now when w e embark on a deep level of forgetfulness, there comes a time we shed layer for layer to erase that, which brings confusion. Not necessarily to the soul who knows how to navigate this, but to the human mind. It’s completely new. The mind has no idea what’s going on. And we often react with confusion, worry, and even fear. This is a normal process, but there comes a time when we’re so deeply frustrated we look out for help. Which is quite normal, and getting a spiritual mentor can help navigate the ups and downs. It can help the process of remembrance more and more. However, sometimes we call out for help out of desperation. We may sometimes think no one out there gets us. And this is just a reminder that you’re always your own healer, teacher, and consoler. You came here with a mission. To forget and to remember again. You came here as an individualized soul that is so powerful it can transcend universes. Your own universe. So never underestimate your own power. Never give your power away. Never think another one, even a master, is more powerful than you. Because they are not. And that’s what they kept teaching us. "What I can do, you can do and more," one of them was supposed to say. So if you’re going through a phase that feels lonely and dark, remember it’s just your own distortions. You are always connected. Always held. Always one with all that is. When you’re lonely, sometimes the best thing to do is ask your spirit guides and call for help. Those beings are there for you; they are with you in each moment. They can assist you in ways that sometimes an external mentor can’t help you. Not because mentors are bad. But we all go through our own individual journey, and this earth and human life can sometimes bring certain limitations and challenges for many of us. Not that the earth is limited, but most of us are all growing. That’s what I do. I connect internally. That’s what I call 'intuition.' The benefit? There’s no jealousy, no comparison, no shame, and no challenge too big. They’re your biggest supporters. And best of all, their help is for free. Light beings don’t even expect money or a thank you. Their guidance is so accurate that it blows your mind. Their love is so overwhelming that it purifies your heart. Their support is so almighty that it leaves your mind eventually calmed down. It’s nourishing. Nurturing. Loving. These beings are just waiting for you to connect with them. They don’t intervene. Why? Because there’s free will. And they respect your free will. Imagine we play chess. You play a character, and you feel miserable. Your mother or sister wouldn’t intervene in the game unless you asked her. Then she can have a look and go like, “Turn right.” Not from a place of desperation or that you can make mistakes. But as a recommendation on how to navigate this game with more ease. Someone with a broad perspective can see things with more objectivity. And that’s what you can do too when you feel lonely and dark. See your life like a game. With more objectivity. Observe your character called human. And then choose anew how you wish to continue. With fear or with love? With shame or with confidence? With gratitude or with hate? That’s a choice no one can take away from you. Because you play. Not because you have to but because you choose to. And if some days feel dark and frustrating, it can be part of human life. Because let’s be honest. Imagine we all had it figured out in a game after one round; what would be the sense of playing? It would be boring. So your limitations keep up the game in a way. And when you’re tired, you can give up further limitations. Step by step. Then it will feel more like someone taking off the eye blinders. You wake up more and more to your true nature that you are: an unlimited divine being in a temporary human experience. That’s what I want to help people with. Not tell them what to do, but help them reconnect with themselves, with their own intuition, remember a bit deeper what this life is all about, and activate your own self-healing or teaching powers.

Have you noticed how fast this time runs? How fast a week passes by. How fast a month passes by. How fast a year passes by. There’s a famous saying that goes “The days are long but the years are short.” It makes me become melancholic. Melancholic enough to re-evaluate what I focus my energy on and my time with. Melancholic enough to be more selective. Too often, we simply live day by day unconsciously. We get up, go to work, go home, eat, and go to bed. A lot are repeating this pattern day by day. There is nothing wrong with it as long as it makes you feel good. But more and more people realize that this feels more like a hamster wheel. A hamster wheel of habit, boredom and sometimes fatigue. There’s a longing. A longing for more freedom. A longing to spend time with what we really love. Again, there’s often the next question people ask themselves. “What do I really love?” A lot of people were conditioned to believe they have to choose a stable job in an office. A lot of people were conditioned to believe they have to adapt and behave. A lot of people were conditioned to believe they are limited. But is this really true or is this merely a belief? Anyway, as I’m sitting here in Bali, enjoying a moment by the beach and trying to slow down, I realize even more how precious this moment is. To just be here. To just sit. To just have a quiet moment with yourself. Not having to do anything. Not having to achieve anything. Not having to prove anything. Not having to acquire anything. Just be in this moment. And I realize it’s enough. We sometimes make life incredibly complicated. We overcomplicate things. We overanalyze. W overthink. It brings us out of the natural flow. In this world that is full of stimulation, competition and trying to overachieve, it’s paramount to slow down. To evaluate what is really important. To ask ourselves: Is this really me? Because this life is not forever. One day we may be full of regret having spent years with overanalysing, overthinking or even competing. Here in this quiet moment I realize, there’s nothing to analyze. Nothing to think about. Nothing to compete with. When you observe the ocean, you can learn a lot from the waves. The waves just go with the flow. They rise and they fall so naturally they don’t even have to think or try hard. Nor compete with other waves. They are simply an expression of the ocean. Not more and not less. They are not separate from the other waves, merely a different expression. One wave is not better than the other, as in the end, they’re all just water. Could it be the same for us humans? In the end, we’re all just energy. Having a human experience. Spending moment by moment which someone once called time. What is time anyway? Some argue time doesn’t even exist. Who knows. May each one define time in their own way. The most important question, however, is, what do you spend your time on?

This world makes you believe it’s not ok not to be ok. It makes you believe you always have to try and be positive and happy. And yes, of course, positive thoughts create positive outcomes. However, sometimes it’s ok not to be ok. It’s ok to feel unwell. It’s ok to feel sad. It’s ok to feel angry. This is part of the human experience. Allow yourself to experience the human life in its full spectrum without judging the highs nor the lows. The more we embrace all of this, the more we ride the different waves with more ease. Especially today, more and more people are interested in personal development, mindset and spirituality, yet there’s an increasing misconception. Spirituality doesn’t mean you have to feel happy all the time. It means embracing your shadows as well. As the word implies, shadows often bring deep emotions to the surface. Emotions we usually don’t want to deal with. Topics we usually don’t want to look at. However, those uncomfortable emotions and topics are part of our growth. That’s why next time you feel bad for feeling bad, don’t. Allow it. Know there’s nothing wrong with you. It’s part of the human experience and the growth process. There’s an even greater benefit to it. Just like after the rain, the air is so much fresher. The grass is so much greener. The same applies to our life. After a low, it feels so much lighter. So much fresher. Our mind is so much clearer. But only when we dare to feel it all instead of escaping or hiding our true feelings while trying to pretend to feel happy all the time. If you try to feel happy while suppressing your true feelings, you remain on the surface level. The more growth and potential we want to activate, the deeper we have to heal and feel. Sometimes before we can see the sun, we’ll have to move through the rain. Just like when you’re on an airplane. Sounds a little cliché, but it's so true. So remember. It’s ok not to feel ok at times.

As the days and years pass, I realize social media has made me more anti-social. I remember the times I used to pick up the phone and call a friend with no phones or apps available. It felt more carefree. We played. We had fun. We told each other secrets. We had no need to show it to the world or prove ourselves to others. Today, each moment is recorded. People smile for the camera. Often for a platform that has made us become more lonely and anti-social as a society than ever before. We suffer from our own loneliness and the constant need for attention and self-approval. Yet, in the old tribes, people lived in communities. Even the old people today still gather in some pubs and play cards. It’s necessary for our well-being. And here I am, reflecting “Heck, who have I become? What are my values?” And I notice now being in my 30s (and I'm sure it doesn't even matter what age you are) it’s considered quite weird to connect. People have family, are married or everyone kind of feels more stressed about their days. All while at the same time you see each day how people upload images on social media pretending to lead the perfect life’s putting a mask on or portraying just their best moment of the week, or putting a smile on just for the camera to get attention, not as a reflection of their true inner self. It’s the connection and authenticity that truly matter though. The moments and days where you long to spend them with like-minded people in real life, not watching their perfect and well-crafted stories on social media. It’s not necessarily about dating and flirting either. Heck, with the years, priorities shift and what used to be fun is no longer as fun. You crave for something more meaningful. Something more real, rather than superficial. Someone who’s at the same wavelength as you are, accepting you for who you truly are beyond the money, status, attention and the perfect life that social media often portrays. And so over the past few weeks, I noticed it’s in my hands. So I went to the forest and after a long time I truly connected with Mother Earth again. I felt, I sensed, I observed. I didn’t even feel the need to take an image. I left my phone in my car to engage with life. To be fully present. And after a while, the energy came back. I felt more alive. I felt calmer. I felt more balanced. After a simple visit in the forest without a phone. Nature spirits are great companions, too. Many of us would think only humans are the “real deal” and those are "just trees" but nature spirits carry so much wisdom. They survived storms, experienced wars in some areas of the world and still stand there deeply rooted within themselves. They don’t move or travel as us humans do and yet they are alive. That’s when you get to know the real world. Not on social media but when you finally choose to engage with life again. And so here I am today, taking my dog out for a walk leaving the phone in my car. How freeing not to hold or look at my phone all the time. You start to move differently. Observe differently. You get more attentive. Give it a try if you feel the pull, just for one day or one activity.