There are so many courses on spirituality and still why are so many still looking?
11 December 2025
The trend of looking for the answers outside of yourself.
The spiritual market has become a billion-dollar market. But does it provide the results we want to see? Is it always effective? Does it always serve us?
Spiritual courses market things like “kundalini awakening,” “consciousness shift,” and “wake up from the illusion,” and while all of that can be helpful, I asked myself, “Does it serve me?” Does it enrich my life?
Many lure people into their courses, promising big consciousness shifts, sometimes starting at 2,000 dollars. If you observe this trend, you may think spirituality has become a new luxury good. Is it another trend we chase, I asked myself? Earlier in our lives, some of us used to invest our money in fancy bags. Now we’re investing in courses, hoping to discover happiness, heal, or attract abundance.
One day, despite attending numerous courses, I found myself unable to manifest my desires. I still couldn’t attract abundance. Believe it or not, I had participated in dozens of abundance courses led by mentors who either held or claimed to hold a high level of consciousness and who shared or claimed to share highly effective light codes. What was I doing wrong? I still couldn’t attract abundance in the long term. It was rather short-term success, not something sustainable.
Until one day, I tuned in to my intuition. I was frustrated: I asked my intuition, "Why can I still not attract abundance?" Why can I still not manifest? I have already done so many light code activations. And my intuition said the most shocking phrase to me.
“If you want to attract abundance, you need to stop taking abundance courses.”
What??? I thought. It was not the answer I wanted to hear.
First, I was in denial with the answer I heard. And that’s quite typical for the intuition. It can give you answers you don’t like or don’t want to hear. But later you notice how exactly those answers can help you evolve. And I asked my intuition, "Will I be even more lost for answers?""
And guess what? Another shocking answer appeared:
“One of the most unsovereign people are people taking abundance courses.”
Oh, damn, I was apparently part of them. But I could soon sense it was not in a bad way. It was supposed to tell me a more profound message: to wake me up from the illusion. And waking up wasn’t stimulated in a course. That waking up came from deep within myself. That was the moment I experienced my first realization:
You do not require another to awaken you. The deepest realizations came from deep within myself.
I had invested a significant amount of money in various courses, and I found myself repeatedly asking the same questions: Why am I not experiencing success? Why can I not manifest? What is holding me back from abundance?
Until the next realization came:
I entered a spiritual or abundance courses with the intention of having someone else tell me the answer or strategy.
I suddenly recognized the pattern. I was playing the “victim.” Playing the victim means you remain unsovereign in a way. You need another one to tell you the answers. And all my self-worth issues arose. The realization dawned on me that I couldn't trust myself, and I didn't even trust my own intuition when it came to providing those answers. I didn’t trust my feeling.
Oh damn, that was so hurtful. I trusted other mentors more than my intuition.
Was I even surprised that I couldn’t attract what I wanted, constantly trying to find answers outside of me?
In that moment, my higher self came through, saying: “I activate you; no one else outside of you has to. I am your guide; no one else out there is.”
Boom, another shocking answer.
Again, this was another answer I would rather not hear or expect. It brought up anger within me, too, realizing how little I could trust myself.
But it was precisely what I needed to hear. In fact, looking back, I realized I was waking up from the deeper illusion. The illusion is that you need an abundance course to attract abundance. I’m not saying that you should avoid taking abundance courses. But if you’ve already done 100 courses or read the 100 tips on abundance, well guess what, the 101st abundance course or tip may not necessarily give you the answers you’re looking or hoping for.
It was when I had another big realization:
there comes a time you need to trust yourself. You must trust your own intuition. You can’t rely on mentors and courses.
So many people become dependent on mentors or courses. This dependency is precisely what can prevent you from accessing your true power. Participating in a course implies that you are saying, “I need to find the answers out there.” So what did I do then?
I did a lot of self-reflection and journaling. And that was my path to abundance. Not by consuming another course and listening to another technique, another lightcode activation, or another affirmation practice that stressed me out. But by connecting deeper with my patterns, my behaviors, my thoughts, my emotions, and my perceptions.
What was the most remarkable result of this new approach? When I just focused on introspection, quieting the mind, and connecting with my intuition on my next step, I suddenly felt as empowered as never before. There was first a whirlwind of emotions and inner chaos/turmoil, but after a couple of weeks, there was much more clarity, more calmness, and more certainty on the next step and my purpose than I have ever felt before.
And that’s the most powerful lesson I learned.
The answers are not out there; they are within you.
If you feel you can’t manifest or you can’t attract abundance although you’ve already taken 100 courses (maybe not literally, but you know that’s what it can feel like), maybe it’s time for you to deeply connect with yourself. Overall, it’s a bit like learning to drive a car. A couple of lessons are helpful; this means that taking some basic courses or receiving initial guidance is beneficial, as well as learning specific skills. However, if you rely on the driving instructor for constant assistance, you may soon have a problem. You’ll never be a sovereign driver. You may never develop your own style.
And yes, even if it means you make mistakes, well, that’s part of life. That’s how you learn. I spent a couple of months in deep introspection. I journaled each day. I sat with my emotions. And finally the answers appeared. New insights arose. New ideas and projects popped up. They appeared unexpectedly. I didn’t chase another abundance course, another activation, or another God-knows-what. And occasionally, it showed me that it’s fairly easy to participate in or even hold a course. It’s so challenging to embody what you learn or even teach.
And I had another important lesson:
Each soul has their unique codes. Each soul activates those codes when they’re ready. And if you’re not ready, then you don’t have to force your progress.
Instead, you can find your own inner rhythm, your own soul rhythm that takes you so naturally. Step by step. Without force. Without pressure. There is no pressure to succeed. Oh, there’s a lot of joy. The joy lies in the process of co-creation. It's the joy of finding your own inner rhythm. And that’s a moment when finally new ideas and abundance can arrive. Not from you trying harder or doing more. It's rather about being more authentic and true to ourselves. We should trust our own intuition and proceed with the action we feel guided to take in this moment. Because ultimately, when you desperately search for answers in a course, you are sending a signal to the universe, “I’m a victim. I don’t know what to do.”
It’s like a whip. While someone is on the bottom, the other one has to be on top. It’s duality. Therefore, when we assert ourselves as the victim, someone else must assume the role of the savior or the hero. And that’s why, just in my very personal view, the spiritual market has become a billion-dollar business. It’s not always based on genuine connection, guidance or help. There's an underlying pattern beneath it.
It’s profit.
It’s playing the hero.
It’s playing the savior.
It’s duality. There is a dichotomy between the victim and the hero.
If there were no victims, there wouldn't be any heros or saviors, charging hundreds if not thousands for spiritual guidance. For techniques and answers that can be found within yourself, too. This conclusion is a personal observation, not a generalization or judgment, and may not apply to all courses or mentors. I observed this phenomenon in more cases than I had hoped to encounter. Some people start getting frustrated at the high rates. But it's not always a high rate that determines the effectiveness of a course or gives you the results you are hoping for.
True sovereignty starts when you realize you’re not powerless. You’re as powerful as your mentor. You’re as powerful as everyone else. You hold all the answers within you. You hold unique codes that only you can share with the world. That’s the path to sovereignty. By claiming it. By embodying it. By allowing yourself to have your own realizations. This involves embracing the process of self-exploration, instead of relying on external sources for answers or healing. So the most painful, yet powerful, realization I had was that you don’t always need an expensive course to progress. Sometimes, all it takes is time to connect with yourself and your intuition. And you know what? It’s free. It costs 0 cents to connect with your intuition. Your guides are there for you. They are beings with so much wisdom. They stand by your side. They don’t expect one cent/penny in return.
Nevertheless, it doesn't mean you can't take courses. It can be helpful to find some inspiration without becoming dependent. I am grateful for the courses I took, as sometimes general guidance can be valuable. But if you keep chasing the answers by doing course after course without seeing true manifestation or abundance results, there comes a point where you have to evaluate if the courses still serve you or have served their purpose.
That can be a life-changing decision. It was the moment I realized that if I truly wanted to attract a life of abundance in all areas, not just financially, I needed to stop relying on others and start building my own future. I had to co-create with my energy, guided by my intuition. That was true self-empowerment.
In the end, spirituality is not a fancy term; it comes from deep embodiment. It involves embodying more of your spirit. No one else can do that for you. It’s not a one-time event; it’s an ongoing process. Since then, life has become my teacher. I learn from life. I learn through experimenting. That’s how I created my business without any prior business experience. That's how I do a lot of things intuitively. Were there failures? There were numerous failures! It showed my limitations, precisely my limiting beliefs, something I could never spot or learn in a course, but only from real-life experiences.
Money or financial abundance in particular doesn’t always come from simply thinking about it; it also requires you to be more authentic and to share with the world what you truly wish to express. And that, only you can know or find out. The most painful thing I experienced was to invest a couple of hundred, if not thousands, of dollars and not see the results I was hoping for. It reminded me of buying an expensive bag that still didn't make me feel happier than a cheaper one.
Why I share this is not to talk badly about any other mentors. But rather, to raise some awareness of a common problem I observe. The problem is that so many people invest in courses and report that they can’t manifest or perceive happiness. It’s not to evoke negative feelings, but to raise awareness and find alternative solutions for how we can make it more convenient and beneficial. Yes, this article may trigger some people, and not everyone would agree, but please note, as always, the content is my personal experience and views.
Take what resonates, and leave what doesn’t.
P.S., next time you take the next course, ask yourself, does this course call me, or is it my desperation pulling me in?
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Where’s home? Ever asked yourself that question? So did I. More than once. Recently I returned from a two-month stay in Southeast Asia. While it initially took me some time to adjust to the new environment, you kind of get used to the new culture, different ways of being, and their daily life. When I came back to what I refer to as my hometown, as in my "birthplace" where I grew up, it felt random. Yes, there was a sense of home of course. It felt familiar. And yet, you realize you’re not the old version of yourself. That can feel stressing. And there are two major possibilities that often happen. You either fall into the old traps or you feel like you need to move again or at least change something. You feel you can’t continue your life the way you did before you left it. This is mainly because you’re not the same version of yourself, you often feel the need of adjusting on the outside. What I realized in particular was how old clothes or even furniture no longer aligned. But it didn’t feel like a happy moment. Letting go of old versions of yourself feels like dying. You leave some old part of you behind. And while that moment can be disturbing or even challenging, you see how it has to happen. It’s part of life. You need to make room for the new. The only constant is change. I personally find this is an ongoing process. Not a one-time event. We undergo continuous changes, and with certain changes, the past cannot accompany us. In fact it binds us. It keeps us trapped in a way. Therefore, I have discovered that the only effective approach is to embrace the sadness. Allow the grief. Grieving old versions of ourselves can be a real thing. I remember when I was a young kid and I grieved that I outgrew my favorite trousers. It felt heartbreaking. And after you allow that sadness and give honor to your path and all your past selves that led you to where you are today, you come to a point where you find gratitude and a new lightness. Even if the path is not yet clear. Even if you have no idea where to head next, you know most likely you can’t continue the same way you always have. It just no longer feels aligned. I feel it doesn’t only happen in our individual lives but collectively too. Cultures and towns are changing, which requires adjustment. There’s a different time and different opportunities, but the old is gone. You can feel it in the air as if the ancestors' spirits echo. So after living or spending time abroad, you suddenly ask yourself, "Where's home?” When you move abroad, you're a foreigner in that new country. But after a longer stay abroad, you now even feel like a stranger in your home country. As much as many of us like travelling and spending time abroad, there can come a time you feel like settling down. But for people traveling and exploring the world, this can be frightening. Not because of staying in one particular place, but rather, to be confronted with the question: where is my home now ? I believe there’s not a right or wrong way when it comes to settling down or thinking about it. There’s only the way that works for you. And as with all in life, you sometimes have to try what works for you in particular. That can be different for each single one of us. What I’ve found for myself is this. Home is in the heart When you feel good with yourself, no matter where you go, you carry that warmth. You know how to be comfy even if your body temporarily feels uncomfy in the new environment. In the moment I wonder, "Where's my home?" without having a direct answer. I center within myself. I ground myself even deeper. Feeling the energy of a place Secondly, what I feel makes you come closer to the answer to that question is to perceive the energy of a place. Places carry energy too. That’s why some places feel light and others feel heavy. Some feel inspirational; others feel dull. So the atmosphere of an apartment can have a great impact on how you feel. Engage with the surrounding Thirdly, home is what you make out of it. It’s the people that make a place special. If you engage in life, initiate something, or open yourself up, your home takes on a new meaning. Stay where it feels good right now, it doesn't have to be forever Fourthly, it’s good to embrace a place as your home without feeling this has to be your forever place. This takes out the pressure. There can be such pressure of making the right or wrong decisions. Sometimes we’re pulled towards places, and they’re exactly where we need to be or what can teach us valuable lessons. Let your heart choose where it takes you next In times of social media and AI, there’s an increasing amount of loneliness arising. People mingle less. They meet less. There’s less art. While AI can have a lot of benefits for making our lives easier, it’s important not to lose our connection to ourselves. Not to lose the creativity. This is what shapes us. It’s not Alexa answering questions; it’s asking our heart the question: what feels good next? The more heart-aligned we are, the more we feel drawn to places, activities, and people that can give us a sense of belonging. Remind yourself you're a temporary visitor Yet, "Where's home?” sometimes remains almost a mystical question. Because on a deeper level, we’re here on Planet Earth temporarily. It’s not our true home. Some souls originate from other star systems or, in the end, from the ether. The nonphysical. That’s why on some days when I feel confused and ask myself, "Where's home?” I remind myself it’s deep in my heart. I’m reminded that I’m a temporary visitor, and instead of being sad or going into over-doubt, I try to remind myself to make the most out of the moment as long as I’m here. Planet Earth is my temporary home now. There’s something beautiful dissolving underneath. The attachment to a specific culture, identity, or place. You realize you’re neither this nor that. On a larger scale this helps you detach a little more from the strong human role and connect a little more to the soul that isn’t bound to a specific place or identity. Allow yourself to experience different versions of yourself Lastly, I remind myself of why I’m here. To experience different versions and identities of myself. I came here for the experience. And so I don’t have to stay the same all my life. It’s ok to let go of past versions. Even if sometimes it feels easier, sometimes it feels more hurtful. I always imagine how trees go through the same dying process each autumn. They drop their leaves. It made me become aware of how nature is so used to the dying process and letting go of the old. Only we humans sometimes hold on to so many things: old memories, old identities, old structures. Imagine nature would resist change the way a lot of humans do; we wouldn’t even have food. Focus on being more, not just doing more Being home reminds me to focus on being more instead of doing more. What people used to call “fear of missing out," referring to a phenomenon to engage in the latest trend, now has slowly turned into an emerging concept of “the joy of missing out." The question of being home reminds us it’s not always about exciting highs and moments that fill you with immense adrenaline; it can be a calm evening at home filled with nice music and candles knowing you're exactly at the right time at the right place. So if you’re currently also going through a period where you ask yourself, "Where's home?” Allow yourself to access deeper layers of yourself. While the grieving and dying process can be hurtful, most likely this process brings you to new realizations or a shift in the way you do, think, and perceive things. Every time I feel off in a place, I make myself become aware that it’s a perfect moment to anchor deeper. To connect a little deeper to my soul instead of my human identity. One day, this whole life fades in the blink of an eye, and all there is is the memory. So let’s fill it with rich experiences and memories and appreciate that each year has its memories. Did you ever experience déjà vu in another country? Like you felt you had been there before? That’s not random. There can be past life connections. I share more about how traveling made me remember my past lives in various countries. And that can contribute to the fact that you may feel so inspirational in some countries and so dull in other towns. Stay tuned.
Today I want to give you a deeper perspective on the deeper meaning behind diseases and how you can rewire your subconscious mind to kind of heal the root cause of diseases. What's happening these days is that a lot of people, when they are faced with a disease or they get a diagnosis, get into fear and panic. And this is a normal reaction. And what is happening on planet Earth is that a lot of people are treating the symptoms. And they're just looking at one main question: How can I get rid of the disease? And they treat the symptoms, which is not a bad thing, obviously. But a lot of people miss the deeper meaning, what it actually caused. They miss the valuable question: What caused the disease? If you kind of miss the deeper meaning, there are many different things that can happen. There’s a higher likelihood that the disease will return a couple of years later or that you may develop another disease because it can shift to another organ or body part if it is not eliminated subconsciously. Sometimes, you face the consequences of a surgery that left you unhappy, and you're dealing with the consequences if it went wrong or resulted in a lower quality of life. Many people are unhappy with their surgery or treatment. That's why I want to share what I have learned during my journey with diseases, especially for those like me who are seeking deeper answers. A disease is not bad luck. It's basically your body talking to you. Your body is signaling that something is at dis-ease, not at ease. And today I want to show you that from an energetic perspective. We have to understand that everything in this universe works in energy. This is not esoteric, it's physics. Understanding this concept can help you a lot when dealing with diseases. So from my personal understanding, diseases only exist in a certain level of consciousness, on a certain energy vibration. Let's say your reality is a bit like a radio sender or a TV sender. You know, when you switch on the TV, you watch a special movie, or you're presented a reality. It doesn't mean that this is the only reality, the only movie, but you are tuned into the frequency right now. If you don't like what you're seeing, you need to switch the sender to have another experience, let’s say, watch a different movie. Like let's say you want to watch a comedy, which means you want to have more fun in life or you want to experience health. That's why the true healing is not treating the symptoms but the root cause. It’s linked to energy. You need to look at what caused it. And it's usually old patterns. It's something like trauma. It's low energy. It's some inner stuff you haven't processed. And that keeps you in that reality, in that vibration where diseases are possible. If you switch your energy to a higher vibration, let's say you rewire your subconscious mind and you kind of neutralize the trauma and the emotions from within, and you move into a state of joy and following your heart and reconnecting with yourself, well, guess what? Your body or your cells, which are the transmitters for consciousness, adjust to your new vibration, and they can actually kind of recover more quickly. And this is what happens when you sometimes see people who heal overnight, and it seems like a miracle. But in truth, they might have such a deep energetic shift, like something like an identity shift, or where they release something, that suddenly when they release this old pain and trauma, the body kind of recovers so quickly that the symptoms fade. And this phenomenon is the kind of thing I would not even say it's magic; it’s the result of shifting energies within you. Sometimes when you shed old trauma or emotions, it can feel very dark. It's not that you feel good. It can feel like you're moving through hell internally. But that is the true healing or how you can actually really treat the root cause. Because if you treat the root cause, then you might even get the surgery to have that thing removed. It doesn't matter, or at least it doesn't mean you can't get surgery. But if you know the root cause, at least it doesn't come back because it's kind of neutralized. The lesson is learned. Otherwise, if you only treat the symptoms without addressing the underlying energetic patterns that led to your experience, you may still have energetic resonance points, as everything operates on energy. So later, this trauma kind of haunts you like, you know, it's not gone. This is because the subconscious mind works a bit like a computer. If you have some old beliefs, it's just like some old files on a computer. You might not see them. You might forget about these old files. You might not think about the past or go like, "Oh, I have emotional trauma.” That's not how it works. It's not conscious, but it's running in the background, so to speak. And this can cause you to repeat the experience and the lessons. Sometimes you see people that after a couple of months, they have another disease, or let's say they first had problems with their legs, and then they treated the symptoms. And then later they have problems with the heart because the trauma or the deeper meaning was not healed. You know what I mean? That's why it's really important, or what I personally see as a big opportunity for humanity, to look a bit deeper and to go into energetic healing, which doesn't mean you can never make use of school medicine. Of course you can. But to really treat the root cause of the disease, look a bit deeper and become curious about what your body is trying to teach you. Because otherwise, if you just treat the symptoms and then you go back to your old reality, please be aware that your old reality where you are right now brought you to that disease. So obviously you cannot go back in there because you risk having another disease, you know? So you need to change. Remember that example that I mentioned with the radio or the TV? You need to kind of shift the sender. In other words, you need to shift your energy from within so that in the future it might not happen again. And when you do that, you can actually experience the true healing from within. That’s the kind of beauty about it. And also sometimes what's unknown to society, which is kind of kept secret, because obviously some entities have interests that are not in the best interest of society. There are some people on Planet Earth who make a lot of money from surgery, pills, and that kind of stuff. And you know what? Changing your energy from within is free. Like, you have to imagine that it's free. You can do this right here and right now. You can start right here and right now. And you basically, if you know some of the tools, you don't even need someone outside. You don't even need to spend thousands of Euros. You know what I mean? Like, this is why sometimes it's not known to the masses. I’m aware some people are doubting energy work. Some people might say that it's not working and it's all made up. However, it is important to note that science has confirmed that everything in this universe is made up of energy. So it's not even esoteric. It's physics. It's already proved by science. And secondly, people can't see electricity. You can't see electricity. So you can't basically see electricity, which gives you a picture on your TV, but you're not doubting it because you see the image on TV. And that's what I always say. You don't have to believe me or believe anyone. You just try it out. Try changing your energy and observe how your external circumstances actually change. Because that's the only way you can know. Like, a lot of people don't believe it, or some believe it and others don't. But believing is not knowing. How can you truly know if something works for you? You need to try it out and see the results for yourself. And as soon as you have like first successes, you realize, oh, this is kind of interesting. And that's why I always say don't believe in anything like that. Just try it out. If you're currently going through a disease, learn to change your energy from within and just see what happens. This is not a guarantee to heal your disease straight away, although nothing is impossible. When you change your energy from within, you feel and see things differently than when you're in complete fear or just treating the symptoms. And that's a message I wanted to share and just raise some awareness that there are in fact other possibilities.