Reasons that might hold your manifestations back from coming into your life

I remember the day when my intuition told me that I was quitting my job soon. They told me another path was waiting and I'm not going back to the corporate world. I was shocked. Could I trust that voice? I had always been intuitive, but that was a whole new level. It was about my job, my security (I thought back then). It's not just trusting your feeling about something. It can be fairly easy to trust your intuition when it comes to "minor" things, but when it comes to "big life decisions," it's a whole different level. I had studied for several years. I I thought my path was in the corporate world until they told me again. Nope. And the oddest thing was when I ignored that sign and started looking for a new job, nothing felt aligned. Nothing truly excited me. It always felt like compromising. Safe to say I made a lot of mistakes at the beginning. But all those turned into valuable learning lessons. However, I ended up finding my passion. Something that truly lit me up. It was writing! I never thought I could ever turn my hobby into a business. I never thought I could have fun while working. I never thought I could look forward to Mondays. And no, not everything is perfect. I went through massive challenges, but they all felt worth it. It's not the same challenges as back in the corporate world, where you're arguing over a useless topic. It's rather about embracing my challenges and about my inner fears, limitations and subconscious beliefs I didn't even know were within myself. Those were the challenges I was suddenly confronted with for the first time in my life. I had no idea how to approach them. I just felt like, "Omg, I can't do it." Until I learned about energy, my intuition and my internal world. I wish someone had given me a roadmap. Almost like a step-by-step guide to know what to pay attention to. Just like a pilot getting a rough idea on how to fly. It doesn't mean you can fly straight away, but if you know the theory, the practical part is a lot easier. If you don't know the theory, you're lost in the dark! I mean, basically you could fly anyway, but with a roadmap it's so much easier. You know roughly what to expect or what to pay attention to. And that's dear to my heart - to pass on what I learned and failed at in 3 years so that you can have a much smoother start if you feel like your life is shifting, too. If you feel the same soul nudge or intuitive feeling that tells you another path is waiting for you but you're unsure how to shift or what to do next. It doesn't mean you have to change your life straight away. It doesn't mean you have to leave your relationships or quit your job just yet, no! There are many approaches, but in the end, it comes down to this: understanding yourself, your passion, how much you can trust yourself, what's going on in your internal world, and your energetic state. That determines what you're going to experience. What makes my work different? I show you a step-by-step guide on what to pay attention to. You can apply it to any life circumstance, no matter where you are, if you're just starting out or already in the process. This approach works for any situation. I still use it to shift into new versions of myself and accomplish new dreams. Because in the end it's the same principle. It's a bit like driving a car or listening to the radio. Once you know, "Oh, that's a dead road," you know to turn quickly instead of driving against the wall for years. Or the same with a radio. You know how to switch the frequency in no time, like, "Oh boom, I don't like this song. I change the frequency to get another song." That's what you can do. You know how to shift your reality, your energy, and as a result, your life! Isn't that cool? You are no longer a victim to outer circumstances; you become your own co-creator. You create your own realities. And if you find yourself in a difficult situation, you know how to switch it rather than staying stuck with it. The truth about life is this: We don't always get what we imagined, but we always get what we're an energetic match to. And if we don't like something, instead of condemning it, we can go like, "Oh something made me magnetize it, but now I will switch it. I no longer choose it." It's the same principle. So instead of thinking of "red roses" all the time, which doesn't exist. Life is not just about happy moments. Life is about embracing everything. Navigating through the highs and lows. Without giving too much attention to either one. We become like a surfer that enjoys the ride. That flows with the wave, and as soon as we learn to flow with the wave, rather than being overwhelmed by it, we learn to enjoy the process. We know that both the ups and the lows teach us a lot! I've learned to never condemn the lows or the challenges, for they teach me a lot! The highs could never teach me that. But if you know how to navigate and shift it, imagine how much you can grow. How much you can go for your wildest dreams because no challenge can hold you back. Because with each challenge you grow and you become one step closer to who you truly are, to your dreams, and to your wildest inner soul desires. You are suddenly living a reality that's far greater than you initially thought it could be when you were first scared to quit your 9-5 or your old job in the first place. Suddenly you become grateful you had enough courage to listen to that quiet feeling. Even if other people considered you crazy. Or your own mind considered you crazy. And then you suddenly know. You just know that you know. That all has a deeper purpose even if you can barely grasp it at the beginning. And so, I ask you. Are you ready? Are you courageous? Let me be honest. There are people out there who don't want to change. And that's okay. Everyone moves at their individual pace. There is free will. But I tell you honestly. There's a famous sentence that goes, "Life begins outside of your comfort zone." At the beginning, when I used to hear that phrase, I used to roll my eyes. But now, 3 years forward, I can honestly say it's true. It holds a certain truth. It doesn't mean you have to bungee jump or do some crazy shit. No. It's not about crazy or dangerous. It's rather about having the courage to do things differently. To approach them differently. To have the courage to go for that idea or passion even if you have no idea where it will take you yet. But that's what life is all about, isn't it? Do you really think life was supposed to be struggling, staying in a dull job each day, and just getting by? I don't think so. Life is what you make out of it. It's a choice. So all I can say from my own journey is this: Choose wisely. If you need some inspiration and a road map to get started on your soul-aligned mission, feel free to check out my Masterclass where I share everything I learned in the past 3 years. Trust me, you can avoid a lot of desperation, frustration and confusion.

In a world full of doingness, we often forget one thing: To be. But it’s the silence that brings us clarity, solutions and inspiration. However, a lot of people have a hard time sitting in silence. In a world, that’s so full of doingness, we forget to be. I remember one day, I came across a woman who had an injury on her leg. It meant to put up the leg for 2 weeks. She was angry. She was on holiday. She was used to doing a lot. She had a lot of plans. Just the thought of lying and resting felt dreadful. That made me reflect. It made me reflect on how much we are focused on doing, instead of just being. So some people may have a hard time with just being with themselves, taking a day off, and just sitting there and being still. I tried it out one afternoon to sit still. I was inspired by Sadhguru. He once shared that precious exercise of just sitting there in stillness without your phone and observing your thoughts and emotions for a day. He added, ‘You have to become aware of your own madness.” While that sounds harsh, it’s true. Sometimes we suffer from our own thoughts and emotions. Our mind constantly sends us from one place to the next, from one activity to the next, so that something as natural as resting feels hard. And why? Because when you start to sit in stillness, your mind most likely will give you a thousand reasons why you can’t. Or why that neighbor is terrible, or why your boss was in a bad mood. Or why Gina broke up with her husband. Or why you can’t achieve your dreams yet. There are a thousand thoughts and more often than we think, not always thoughts that serve us. And yet it’s those thoughts that co-create our reality. What you think about, you become. One day, I made an interesting observation. I had worked a lot for my business, and I still thought I hadn’t done enough. Only when a woman told me, “You’re exhausted. Take a break.” I realized what a distorted way of looking at things I had. In my perception, I hadn’t even worked or accomplished enough, whereas she felt I had worked too much. You see how sometimes we can’t really see things about ourselves? That’s why I truly believe it’s precious to have other people around. They can observe and tell us things from their perspective that we may not be able to see. And so I would just sit there and allow my thoughts to run wild. I had to practice that for days to just sit still. It’s become one of my favorite exercises. You see, even in some spiritual communities they make you believe you have to do a guided meditation. You have to visualize. You have to breathe to 5. You see, all that is linked to a certain activity and doingness again. But on that day, I allowed myself to be. I just breathed the way that felt most natural to me. I didn’t care if it was too fast or too slow. I didn’t care about a specific breathing technique. I just sat there, centering in the heart and feeling all black in front of me. But it’s not black as in sadness. It’s stillness. It’s the nothingness. And that reminded me of our essence. We are pure energy beings. We co-create physical matter from the nothingness. I’ve heard some call it the “zero point.” I n the nothingness there is everything. And when you allow your thoughts to calm down, there comes peace. There is no need for striving hard. For working hard. Peace is as natural as breathing. You can’t strive for peace. It’s a natural state of being that arises once you dare to no longer pay attention to any thoughts. And every time, I come out of the meditation that I call the “no thought meditation,” I feel more rested. I feel more inspired. I feel more alive. Not from doing a lot, but from doing nothing. I learned the most important lesson in my life. Inspiration doesn’t come from doing more; it comes from being more. Clarity doesn’t come from worrying more; it comes from being more. Solutions don’t arise from thinking more; they come from being more. Because suddenly out of the “nothingness” there is the “everything.” It’s the dichotomy that some spiritual gurus have talked about in the past. You realize that the inspiration you search for isn’t found in a book but within yourself. You realize the clarity you crave isn’t found in another energy reading, but within yourself. You realize the solutions you crave arise when you choose not to believe your thoughts. Because then you often don’t need solutions anymore. You heal the pattern that caused the problem to arise in the first place. When you no longer believe your thoughts and emotions, a lot of problems will disappear. Just like when there are no clouds in the sky, there will be no rain. In other words, no drama without dramatic thoughts. No problems without problematic thoughts. Then there comes a point of allowance. You can allow everything to be exactly as it is. And then there is like magic happening. You move back to the natural flow of life. Effortlessy. Without striving hard. Without doing more. Without working hard. Without trying so much. Just by allowing yourself to be more and taking more time to sit in stillness. Enjoy your own presence. That has solved half of my problems without doing anything. Afterwards you realize if you still carry those thoughts with you, then it’s a conscious choice. But then you can’t blame anyone else. Then you want the problems. You have fun with the problems. Because you now realize you create the problems yourself.

There is an increasing number of health problems, diseases and illnesses. The number is increasing. No matter if it’s viruses, cancer or mental health issues, the numbers are on the rise worldwide. That can be quite alarming. Although in today’s world, we have access to different technologies and healing methods like never before, there is something beneath the surface that’s hard to ignore. A disease is more than just a disease. To our human mind that often thinks in logical terms, it’s a disease. So, we’ve learned to treat the symptoms and get some pills to function as soon as possible. But ever wondered what’s behind a disease on a deeper level? E.g. out of a spiritual perspective? There can be all kinds of reasons. What’s important to understand is that we don’t just have a physical body. We have a mental body, an emotional body, an energetic body, an etheric body. They are not all visible to the human eye and that’s why we start doubting it. But healing on an energetic level can accelerate our healing journey in ways we may never consider or even imagine possible with the human mind. One very curious observation about humanity is we doubt alternative healing methods such as energy healing but we don’t doubt the existence of a radio. Interesting, isn’t it? Basically, the radio consists of electricity. It’s energy, too. You can’t see the electricity but you can hear the song on the radio. Each radio sender has a different frequency. That frequency determines which radio sender you listen to. You wouldn’t doubt that, would you? You exactly know if you don’t like some sort of music when you’re on your way to work in the morning, you’ll switch the sender. There’s no doubt about that. What if inner healing worked the same? What if a disease means you’re plugged into a reality that has certain characteristics and as a result, you get to experience certain events? Now some people would argue a disease is mean and unfair. And without a doubt, it can be life changing and nerve-wracking and can be filled with emotional ups and downs. But seeing a disease the same way we see a radio, would you say a music sender that plays very loud and inconvenient music is mean and unfair? No, it’s an experience. If you don’t like that experience or type of music, you’ll switch the sender. So often it’s just our mind calling that disease mean and unfair. On a deeper level, nothing is mean or unfair. It’s simply an experience. When you start to identify with it all, that’s often where the true suffering starts. So sometimes it’s not about condemning the disease, it’s about opening up to new perspectives. New perspectives can actually accelerate or even facilitate your healing journey. Instead of calling the disease mean and unfair you could be asking: Why am I experiencing it? What is it co-creating deep down? What’s my energy like? What’s going on in my internal world? Those could be some questions to ask to become curious. The same way we would ask ourselves why we listen to that sender on a specific radio realising we’re plugged into a certain frequency. When we change our frequency from within, we start vibrating at a different level. The same as a radio. The result? We change our outer reality. Because our outer reality is not so real after all. It’s a reflection of the inside reality. Here lies the great potential and opportunity. To heal from the inside out. It doesn’t mean that classical healing methods are bad. Not at all. There are so many different healing methods. However, we often just treat the symptoms, not the root cause. So, this is an invitation to look a bit deeper, to not just treat the symptoms but get closer to the root cause. It would be the same for a radio. If you don’t like a music sender, you can turn down the volume, you can attack it with your hands, you can yell at it and you may not listen to it for a while but that’s not really solving the problem, is it? That’s what we sometimes do with diseases. We take pills and undergo surgeries that kill our cells or where we’re even more likely to experience heavy side effects. Not really true healing. But we often ignore the fact, which by the way, is also known to scientists, that everything is energy. Even our cells vibrate. Our cells react to energy and different vibration levels. This is not a healing promise. It simply serves as some sort of inspiration to open up to new perspectives on healing. In the end, everyone has to find their own healing journey and what feels best to them. If you're interested in learning more how you can shift your reality and tune into another energy and get some practical inspiration for your daily life, check out my Masterclass: Co-create the life of your dreams. You'll learn how to shift your energy and become an energetic match towards your dreams or desired outcome.

I remember when I was a teenager, maybe 15 years old, I was first interested in spirituality. Back then, it wasn’t “normal.” You could hear things like “You’re too young.” Or “You can do something like that when you’re older.” And for a while I thought there was something wrong with me. Maybe I wasn’t normal. But what I’ve learned is your craziness becomes your uniqueness one day. At first you really think you’re not normal, but then again, you ask yourself, what’s being normal in the first place? Being normal is being someone that often follows society's expectations. Get an education, get a job, get a car, get a house, get kids. If you’re not adhering to those society expectations, you’re often considered not “normal." And it’s obvious. That’s what most people know. “Not normal” simply means you’re not doing what society generally knows or expects you to do. But here’s a curious observation: A lot of people following those exact footsteps of getting an education, getting a car, a house and kids increasingly suffer from burnout or a feeling of emptiness. Isn’t that interesting? In a time where the world is full of possibilities, the number of burnouts is increasing too? When I was younger and I was drawn to spirituality, I was never really interested in any particular spiritual practises. I just felt there was more to life than what the human eye could see. I was curious to learn more about myself and the world. Soon after I joined spiritual communities, I realized how many struggles they had themselves. How many ideas and concepts they held that didn’t align with me personally. It didn’t align with me back then to eat vegan. It didn’t align with me to do yoga or travel to India or meditate all day long. Not that there’s anything wrong with that, but it simply wasn’t my personal idea of how I wished to lead life. However, deep down in my heart, I just knew I came here for more. I just couldn’t name it or didn’t know what it was. I always felt drawn to writing and while I could perceive some ideas and visions of what I really felt like doing in life, they all sounded too crazy for my own mind. So indeed, I followed society’s expectations and went into education instead. I turned my back on spirituality. And for a couple of years, I would often act against my inner desires without realizing it. I thought I needed to get the money, the house and the job to be happy and live the life I love. Boy, was I wrong. Soon after I entered the corporate world, I felt how much competition there was. How much rivalry. How much jealousy. No one would talk about it. It’s not just competition in your own team but amongst companies. Amongst your competitors. Doing a competitor analysis was once part of my daily tasks. Until one day, this all didn’t feel aligned anymore. It was not something obvious, but deep in my heart, it felt so useless. To cut the story short, this time I made myself a promise. I would no longer ignore the whisper of my heart. I would no longer ignore my feeling that was telling me that the path I was on didn’t feel like my path. There was a bit of confusion. The spiritual communities didn’t entirely feel aligned. The corporate world didn’t either. I just wanted to create a life on my terms. I didn’t want to follow any pre-existing ideas of how to live life. I wanted to live with more purpose and passion just the way I am. Back then, little did I know what I could do instead. I always admired others who had a passion like painting or acting and now they became painters or actors. I thought I had no gifts or talents like that. Boy, was I wrong. As soon as I discovered more about myself, for the very first time I discovered gifts and aspects I didn’t even know I had. And soon I noticed how there’s an infinite amount of possibilities and potentials within each single one of us. I was amazed. Why we can’t see those potentials is because they’re dormant. We often don’t nurture our dreams and desires enough. It’s a bit like a flower. If you don’t nurture the seeds regularly, no flower can grow. I was at a point where I was no longer satisfied with the status quo. I started to follow my heart. At the beginning I was scared. I was scared of what other people would think of me. I was scared if it wasn’t working out. I was scared I would fail so hard and have to go back to my old job. But one day, you learn to embrace those fears and at some stage, you learn to turn the page. You’re now more scared of going back to your old job than being scared of doing your own thing. And there comes a point where the outer opinions of people become less and less important to you. Not because you don’t care, but you realize it’s your life, not theirs. You’re not here to make others happy; you’re here to experience more of yourself. The most important thing is to follow your heart. Then everything that is meant for you will come to you. It comes from a place of inner alignment. Not from a place of pushing or fighting for a goal. That was the miracle I saw. In the corporate world it all felt like hard work and pushing all the time. When you follow the heart, it’s the other way round. You can’t really push or fight for a goal. If you do, then most likely, something is not truly aligned otherwise you wouldn’t have to push. It doesn’t mean there aren’t any challenges. But pushing often happens in the mind. The mind makes us believe we have to make certain things happen. But sometimes it’s just an image we have. Like some people may have the image of achieving a certain job title “to be someone” or to have made it. But who defines that? Those images are created in your own human mind, not in the heart. And now that we have those ideas in the human mind, we think we have to achieve certain things. We start pushing, hustling. Once you spot the ideas and limiting concepts in your mind, you realize what a natural flow there is when you allow your heart to take over instead. There is a power about the heart. It’s like a technology. It’s where AI can never get. AI is fed by humans. But your heart is greater than you can currently think. It’s beyond all your limitations, where everything you long for is possible. Where everything you long for is already within you. Yes, it sounds surreal. But once you tap into the energy of your heart, you understand what I’m talking about. And so I made it my mission to follow my heart. To let my heart guide me in my business, in my daily decisions, in my relationships, in my health, basically in any aspect of my life. Not only did it bring me so much more joy, healing and a sense of purpose, but also it feels much more aligned with who I am. Is it always easy? Oh no. I’ve gone through moments of pure frustration and despair. But those moments helped me to shed a little more of the ideas I created in my mind. Sometimes, it’s very hard because you go against the norms that are known in society. People would give you odd looks, “Are you crazy, you give up your safe job? You give up the security?” And as Sadhguru once put it so nicely in a video, “Security is what you have on your grave.” Then indeed, nothing can happen anymore. If you want security, you don’t want life. You will usually settle for less. You will usually be too scared to take risks. You will usually be too scared of going against the norm. Because that’s security. You feel secure in your body when you don’t stick out. When you do as you were told to do. When you want security, you often want comfort. But you don’t grow in comfortable situations. You grow when you’re challenged. The biggest learning lessons in my life didn’t appear when I felt comfortable. They happened when I was either so uncomfortable or in the middle of a challenge or even a painful situation. It doesn’t mean pain is necessary to grow. But sometimes I realized I wouldn’t have changed otherwise. The pain becomes bigger when we’re unwilling to adapt, change or transform. When the heart screams “Yes” and our mind goes “No” or vice versa. When we do things and say yes to tasks and people when deep down the heart screams “no”. You have to choose who you trust. Do you choose life or security? Do you choose your heart or your mind to guide you? Do you choose to do it like everyone else does and most likely follow society's expectations, or do you do what feels most aligned with your heart even though it may go against all expectations? You choose. Sometimes people say they don’t have any other choice and my younger self thought the same. Today I am convinced we all have a choice. Not choosing is also a choice. 10 August 2025 by Laura Becker

Sometimes life crumbles. It can come so unexpectedly. Everything may seem so smooth. We go on with our daily life. But suddenly something shakes us. A disease, a layoff, or even a sudden death of a loved one. Or even something like burnout or a job rejection. What often happens is we condemn them. We judge them. We judge those experiences. We sometimes may even make our own self-worth dependent on it. Now we feel like we’ve done something wrong, or we feel like a failure. Especially when you can’t find a new job or you’re laid off while your colleague is not. It can hurt. However, that’s just one perspective about it. The real reason behind those challenges often remains hidden. Unknown to the logical human mind. Sometimes behind those challenges can be a conscious awakening. What does that mean? Let’s be honest. We don’t change in our comfort zone. It’s too comfortable. However, when a major life event or challenge appears, we start questioning ourselves and life. And while it can appear like a challenging phase, it’s a gift in disguise. It can lead us to a lot of realizations, learning lessons, and deeper truths about ourselves and life. And really, that’s what we’re here for. If there was nothing to experience or realize, it would be boring. As much as we say we’d like to have it all figured out, it would be the same to say we would like to play with open cards in a game. Yes, it would be easy, but also we wouldn’t need to play if everyone had their cards open. Our souls sometimes love a challenge, even if for our human it can appear so unfair or not enjoyable at all. I was once denied a job position. If I hadn’t been denied, I would have probably never gone self-employed. I would have never created my own blog. I always dreamed of having a blog, as I enjoyed writing and sharing my thoughts. But I always postponed that dream or didn’t even consider that dream for real. My mind gave me too many reasons why it wasn’t worth creating a blog. See how I was holding myself back from my dreams? So that job rejection, which felt awful back then, was a gift in disguise. The special thing about a gift in disguise is that while you’re going through them, they can feel like hell. Only much later is the gift revealed. And the gift is often a redirection. You’re redirected onto a different path with new experiences and opportunities to grow. So here are 3 signs you might be going through a conscious awakening. Those are no generalizations, just some general guidance. A major challenge such as a disease or a job rejection A depressed phase as if nothing makes sense anymore and you don’t recognize your old self A deeper longing for the truth and wanting to spend more time alone than usual just doing nothing and sitting in a quiet space A conscious awakening is chosen by the soul, and in my experience, it’s determined by your own subconscious beliefs, trauma and limitations. What’s important is to allow the process to happen. Some people fight against change. They do everything to keep their current reality going. But if you want to move to a different reality where you may experience more joy, peace and fulfillment, you have to be willing to release old versions of yourself. That can feel like a dying. It can suck. But let’s remember with each dying aspect, there is a new version of us born. A lighter version. A version that has grown. Just like nature. What appears like autumn to us means death to the leaves of a tree. Nature has often been my teacher. You can learn a lot from trees. They go through the dying and rebirth process so naturally. They don’t fight as much as we humans. They simply allow it. If something is not how you expected it to be, follow the unexpected. Trust that life has a plan for you. Trust that there is a deeper message or even a different path waiting for you even if you can’t see what it is yet. That’s the magic of life. It comes in all shapes and forms. No life is perfect, so we've got to embrace the highs and the lows and trust that everything brings us the exact experience or lesson we need right now. So what is a conscious awakening, some may ask? Well, it’s becoming more conscious of who you are deep down and who you’re not. It’s becoming conscious of what the world is and what it is not. It’s about the deeper truth of who you are.

Treating the symptoms versus healing the root cause: What is the difference? This morning, I came across a headline on social media about older baboons (monkey/cat-like creatures) that were killed in a zoo due to overcrowding in the zoo. There were a lot of animal activists trying to prevent it. No matter the deed, the outcome or what opinion someone might have about that incident, each one of us may have their unique intention and opinion. And without a doubt, no matter whether you see innocent people or innocent animals being killed for some shallow reason, it is a tragedy. It reflects something deeper about humanity. That something is so foul. And again, it’s not about searching for the bad guy. Or judging others for their bad behavior. It showed me how much humanity often tries to solve the symptoms instead of the root cause . In this case they’re trying to save the animals in the zoo (=the symptoms), but the real question that popped to my mind is, “Why do people still go to the zoo in the 21st century knowing that the animals suffer?” (=the root cause) Yes, it’s a pleasure, but if the pleasure is one-sided, it can cause harm and pain to everyone. Because after all, we remain one humanity. One world. And I noticed how humans tend to solve the symptoms so often, no matter if it’s with animals, relationships, finances or health. Isn’t it alarming? So today I want to provide some insights on how to heal the root cause instead of the symptoms. Have you noticed how we humans tend to solve the symptoms instead of the root cause? Here are some examples. A disease Humans often ask: What pills and therapy forms help? How can we do better therapy? Instead of asking: What caused me to feel ill or at dis-ease? A failed relationship Humans often ask: What can you do when living with a narcissist? What are techniques to calm a husband who is a narcissist? Instead of asking: Why do I choose to spend my time with this man in the first place? In a zoo with a killed animal Humans often ask: Why do they kill the animal? How can we prevent the zoo owners from killing old animals? Instead of asking: Why do we still go to the zoo knowing that it’s no good for animals? Mental health issues Humans often ask: What techniques and pills help against depression? Instead of asking: What causes me to feel depressed about myself and my life? What does life invite me to change? In finances Humans often ask: Why are our politicians and economy so bad? Instead of asking: What can I do or offer to the world that can make additional money? What skills do I need to build a side business instead of waiting for the politicians to decide on a new rule that will improve my situation? Healing the symptom is like an open wound that bleeds through again and again. It can cause a lot of pain and struggle, just like an open wound can. Healing the root cause is like a scar. You won’t necessarily forget about it. The experience shaped you in a way, but it will no longer bleed through. It will no longer cause pain. It ’s about a behavioral and attitude change. Healing the symptoms means you play the victim. You look for the guilty one on the outside. Healing the root cause means you become the Creator. You take responsibility for your own behaviour. Imagine if only half of the population would take responsibility for their own behavior. What would the world look like? It would look like a healed place. Because change doesn’t necessarily start in politics or in the economy. It starts in the heads and minds of each single human. Never feel small. You play a significant part in this world. And sometimes it also means that you don’t pursue hobbies for egoic reasons. In other terms, just for your pleasure when you know others suffer from you having pleasure. Such as going to the zoo. It means seeing the bigger picture: if someone else suffers, we all suffer, as we are all one humanity. We are not so separate after all.

Ever asked yourself why good people turn ill? What’s the deeper message behind diseases? Are they really bad or could they just be our “ambassadors”? What’s the “soul perspective” behind diseases? Over the past years, I spent a lot of time on energy healing, the inner work and the root cause of diseases. I was always curious to learn more about it and I made some interesting observations so far. I always kept them to myself as living in a society that is full of judgment, I preferred keeping the truth to myself. Today, my intuition guided me to share some of my insights and observations which came as a complete surprise. I share them because I trust that they may help some of you out there too! Those are just based on my personal experiences and perceptions. Feel into your heart if some resonate with you and/or can shed some light on questions you may have. Why do “good people” become ill or even diseases such as cancer? Here are my observations: They’re not just this human. Many spent many lifetimes what we refer to as “previous life’” and not all previous life’s were so “good" For the soul nothing is ever good or bad. It’s an experience. The energy of that experience is different Being good is an illusion. It’s about being real and the true you not a mask of playing “good”. It can be a redirection or a reminder to look deeper For the soul, it’s not about money and fame. That’s just an experience. Not an end goal. It’s about growth. Sometimes growth happens the most through a disease How do you energetically heal diseases? Why do some heal and others don’t through energy work? You have to remove the plug ins from lower vibrational timelines. Everything is energy. Some people don’t believe in energy work and as a result, it’s not working for them. It’s not a question whether energy work helps, but whether the ill person is ready to release old patterns that bind them energetically. 3 things I see in ill people even people that go through illnesses such as a cancer From a soul perspective • The souls agreed to experiencing that disease. It’s not a vengeful man with a beard or “bad luck”. It’s chosen or created by the soul. That provides comfort that no one is ever a “victim”. Why would the soul choose that? Because it’s temporary. For an eternal soul, one lifetime passes in a blink of an eye. It’s just temporary. • They have resonance points to lower vibrational energies. It’s an opportunity to release it. • Just a personal observation: some of the ill people spent lifetimes in war or famine or similar “tough lifetimes” and store that trauma in their cells. Cells have brain memory and consciousness. E.g. if you use chemotherapy, you’re killing the cells (=the symptoms) but not the root cause (=the trauma that caused the disease in the first place). That’s why some humans get sick again because the souls want to heal the root cause Why do young people die e.g. of diseases? For the souls, they know no time and space. They are energy, they are eternal. To me remembering many previous life’s, it appears more like playing Monopoly. Whether you depart after 1 round or 10 rounds, it doesn’t have an impact. In other words: Whether you’re here for 1 year, 10 years or 100 years is a choice. The soul chooses when to leave. And sometimes the experience in one human lifetime was enough to move on, even for us humans we’d consider that “short”. For the soul it’s not about the years, it’s all about the moments. Moment by moment by moment by moment. Not all souls wish to heal a disease in this lifetime. They can always reincarnate. In the US, more and more young children say they’re the grandma. That’s not always the case and you can’t generalise here, but it’s not uncommon either. Reincarnation is real, but seen as odd for many in society. One weird thing from remembering my previous life In one of my previous lifetimes that I remember I died of something similar to cancer. I was so angry before I died. In the moment I died it felt like I was “waking up” realising “it was just a dream. An illusion” Sickness was an illusion. And I perceived other light beings around me. Trauma can be behind diseases One day I started writing a short story about my previous life as a nun Although I wasn’t even religious Religious trauma show itself -always looking for the answer outside of you. In a book, the sky. -the “good girl” syndrome. Always thinking you have to be a good human instead of just being real -struggling with money, men or different things. Charging money for healing or spiritual services feels bad. It’s not a generalisation nor second guessing. But if you have any of these behaviours, just know those beliefs can come from those lifetimes. You don’t need to remember those lifetimes but spot and release those beliefs. How you can help an ill person Often, we project fear onto that person. How you can really help them on a soul level although it’s not always easy • See the divinity in them. The complete soul playing a role. Just like a complete human playing a character role in Monopoly game. That can help them see their own divinity. • Trust that everything serves a higher purpose. Their soul is most likely just healing something. Even if you don’t understand what, provide comfort. Show compassion. The disease can be terrible, but the consequence (=the learning lesson can be absolutely healing. It can help the soul for future lifetimes.) • Understand energy. When you’re in the energy of calmness, trust and comfort it’s how another one can heal the easiest. It’s the energy they need to heal. As supposed to fear and doubt which will make them even more fearful. Energy doesn’t communicate through words only. You convey a feeling. Ever sat next to a calm and loving person? It calms you down, doesn’t it? Why can some remember previous life’s and others can’t? It’s not because some are chosen. It depends on your level of consciousness. Your consciousness = how much you can perceive. It’s similar to when you’re in a shopping mall. On the ground floor you may see the butcher, bakery and people running around. Everything may seem chaotic. On the 7th floor you see airplanes, the blue sky. Everything seems so calm. Who’s right? Both. That’s called perception. Yet, it’s all a choice. Just like you can visit other floors in a shopping mall, you can raise your consciousness. If you doubt any of those information or perceptions or you doubt previous lifes exist, that’s completely valid! Trust yourself and move on.

A couple of years ago, I used to read the news each day in the morning. I heard someone say it’s eloquent and intelligent and it makes you smart. As I wanted to appear smart too or let’s say do it like the others, I did. Until one day, I questioned that belief. Is it really smart to read about all of the world’s issues? I mean, there’s a lot going on. From a cat having diarrhea to wars, fights, killings and stabbings. If we indulged in the news all day long, I’m sure it wouldn’t even be surprising if some of us became sad or even suicidal. I generally like to question things and asked myself again… is it really smart to read about all the problems in the world? All the wars? In other words, reading about so much that isn’t working? Wouldn’t it be much smarter to read about things that are working and apply more of them? Could it be that there are negative agendas behind the news just wanting to make you feel worried and fearful? No assumptions here, just a personal perception. One day, I heard a guy called Matias de Stefano say that in the past, people without social media were better off. They just had their own life and their own problems. They didn’t have to carry the problems of the world and the burden of the disasters. It made me reflect and actually it was a fair point. Without a doubt, disasters are horrible. Bushfires are horrible. Just picturing losing your home is terrible. Or whatever else it might be. I do have understanding and feel a lot of empathy for those people and trees. But let’s be honest here. We won’t make the world a better place by worrying even more. It only pulls down our own energy. The energy we could actually use instead to act on new projects and ideas that could prevent those incidents from happening in the future. And that made me rethink my choice or my decision of reading the news in the morning. And why I later stopped it. And here’s why. I once came across Neale Donald Walsh who shared an impulse to read the news and spot the words they use. How much negative language there is. How much drama. I was shocked when I really looked out for it consciously. Even words carry energy. We often absorb that energy often unconsciously which has an effect on how we feel. Sometimes the lines we read even shape beliefs or makes us fall into the energy of hate and judgment. Could there be negative agendas behind the news wanting to keep the world separated to keep the power? No assumptions here, just a personal perception. Even some people I came across that gave interviews suddenly apologised on social media arguing that they never said certain things the media published. Or the news either added something they asked not to include or they left out an important part of their message and it now conveyed a completely different message often in a negative sense. Isn’t that interesting again? Additionally, another interesting observation: I was once in Spain years back, and suddenly a family member called me feeling very nervous. “Where are you??? Are you ok??? Are you safe?” I was walking in downtown Madrid going like, “erm yes why shouldn’t I be ok?” They told me in the German news they said there were riots in Madrid. I was one street away and it was just so little I didn’t actually see or hear it. When I saw the German news they had used images that I later discovered in other news articles from riots in a completely different country 4 years ago. I was shocked. They didn’t even use accurate images. Again, do they have negative agendas to feed off our fear energy? No assumptions here again, just a personal perception. So, I observed every time I read the news and despite feeling empathy for what people are going through, I realised I cannot bear the burden of the world, so to speak. Nor do I wish to feed negative agendas with my energy. Here on the other side of the world I couldn’t do anything if a bushfire in Australia broke out, as an example. I can only send my empathy, hoping the people make the best out of it, find strength and most importantly, learn from it. Because let’s be honest. A lot of problems and issues in the world are man-made. The trees don’t start burning just like that. So when we raise awareness we could achieve much more than putting our energy into fear and worry. One day, I had a conversation with a lady I met who told me that she gave up reading the news a long time ago. At first I found that random. Almost strange. Isn’t it ignorant not to read the news or not to know what’s going on? I first thought. But then I realised in the past, people didn’t have access to social media either. They didn’t know what was going on on the other side of the world. That allowed them to take care of their own life and their own problems and challenges, which, in my view, is often enough. As I’m generally open to new things, I tried a news-free challenge for 2 weeks. No news for 2 weeks. Boy, even after the first three days I felt more calm. I felt more joyful not being exposed to those negative headlines right in the morning or evening. Instead, I’d focus on my breakfast, look out the window and thought, “Actually everything is good.” It made me realize we just suffer in our own minds and it can start right in the morning by absorbing negative headlines from the news. Now I deleted the news apps and chose to fill it with inspirational apps. And honestly, many months later, do I have the feeling I missed out on something? Not at all. I focus on things that nurture my life and, as such, my surroundings. Do I feel less smart suddenly? Not at all. I realised how many distorted beliefs and even negative energy you can absorb about countries, people and situations that, who knows, might not even be fully accurate all the time. And really, if something important is happening, other people will immediately tell me about it. If something important really happened, I’m sure I will get to know about it. If someone needs my help and I can help them, I would consider doing so, but I think it won’t help them just from me absorbing fear- and drama-based energy from reading inaccurate or exaggerated information provided in the general news. For me personally, a new luxury is to think for yourself and question things you do or even dare to question things that society tells you to do. Some people want to convince you of doing things a certain way. But if that was really "THE" way, would the world really be in the shape it is today? Who knows?

First of all, I ’m not speaking of people spending time alone and longing to be with others. That might have different reasons. I’m speaking of the moment you feel like being alone by choice even if others would consider that weird. Already in my teenage years, I loved doing things on my own. I often loved walks on my own. I loved journalling on my own. I often loved travelling alone. People would give me odd looks and for a time I thought, well, maybe it’s me being weird. Yet, it sometimes just felt the “right” thing for me. I remember how I sometimes joined groups and I just felt drained. I felt I had less energy after being with certain people than being on my own. Drained by travel itineraries, drained by too many compromises and simply doing things just to please others. Now there has to be a balance and without a doubt compromises may be part of life, I don’t want to deny that. But yet here’s a question: if you always do what pleases others, will you truly feel happy in the long term? I believe it will come at a certain cost one day. Your own inner desires are not met. Or can fall by the sideway. That which you truly want and long for deep down. Don’t feel like visiting that temple your friend loves to visit? Why do you go then? Don’t feel like doing XYZ your partner loves when you prefer some alone time? Why do you do it then? Everything is our energy and has an effect on the reality we experience and in the long term also on our satisfaction. That’s why only years later I learned that solitude in any shape or form is not loneliness. It’s sometimes necessary to become aware of your own desires. To nurture your own dreams. To reflect on what’s important to you. While it’s nice to have companions, in the end the longest relationship you have is with yourself. You can never entirely rely on the other. What if they leave you? What if they die? What if they deceive you? It’s not to picture any worst-case scenarios but to stress the importance that your needs come first. It’s not selfish. And then it’s much easier to build a community around that. A community that supports your dreams, desires and reflections, not one where you constantly have to adapt at the cost of your own satisfaction. What I’m trying to say is, if you feel like travelling alone, it’s fine. Don’t let yourself be put down by other people’s weird looks. That was my biggest realisation. Solitude is not always loneliness. Reflection time is important. Connecting to yourself is substantial. From a peaceful mind and clear thoughts, you can take action more clearly and interact with people more peacefully. So it can have many benefits not just for your own life but also for the people around you. Other times it may be more fun to join a community than to do things on your own. I believe there is no right or wrong. The best thing is to do what feels “right” in the moment. Now years later, I do realize how I carry the first fruit from my time spent alone. In the way that I feel much more connected to myself and my intuition than before. I feel much more clear on who I am and what my desires are. I feel much more aware of what my strengths and also weaknesses are. It doesn’t mean I’m perfect or that there’s nothing more to learn, but I simply feel much more clarity and awareness than before. And that shows in the outer world e.g. through more balance and joy, new heart projects and a new sense of self. People may look at me and say, “wow she may be lucky.” But it’s not about being lucky. It’s years of inner alignment. It comes after spending moments of confusion and many more moments sitting with your own anger that you finally become clear on what you wish to tolerate and what you no longer wish to tolerate and say yes to. That’s why solitude has so many benefits for your life. It doesn’t necessarily mean to live off-grid and distance yourself from people. No. Just take time for yourself. I f you feel like you can’t make time for yourself for whatever reason be it work or children then simply notice. The kids and work are important but without your satisfaction no one entirely benefits. So if you’re satisfied the people around you will be. I’ve observed that there are quite a few people who would feel entirely insecure about doing something on their own. Now they’re confronted with themselves, their own internal world. Now it comes to trusting yourself and life. Many are not used to that. Most of us were raised trusting others. Be it a book, a teacher, a religious doctrine. Someone else tells us who we are and what we should do. We rarely learn to be on our own let alone think for ourselves. So sometimes spending time on your own can be a completely new experience for some. But it can bring you new insights and you may get to know new aspects about yourself you weren’t even aware of. If you haven’t spent time alone, give it a try. Grab a book or simply take some time to reflect or whatever feels comfortable to you. If you love spending time alone and feel guilty, stop the guilt. It’s fine. There’s nothing wrong with you. Always remember if others consider you weird it’s their beliefs they are projecting onto you, it doesn’t have to be yours.